Leila - Hackney - London last year.

One drunk Night in when i was living with Chez and Leila this time last year.

This Morning.

Nothing like needles and drilling for a filling at the dentist to wake you up. I had that awkard thing of... Not knowing where the hell to look, I established looking at lady dentist while she worked was weird, and eyes closed is a tad creepy.... So I picked a light fitting and made friends with it. As my face numbed from injection I couldn't help chuckle and think of heather mills stroke face. It's the small things that make a day.

i have the best muff.

mystic

I was knocking myself out to make this stuff. And I always assumed that people would see this and have pity and give me a little support.

Jack Smith

romance

we have never met before..

well.. i did meet your shoulder, but the face was busy.

the years..

always run along.. but i just had this moment. I remember being 17 and so heartbroken and crushed that i thought my heart was dead and my eyes where bleeding.

i felt so sad.

and i couldnt understand.


im angry at myself for being the man who hurt me.


i know i ask perfection of a quite imperfect world. And fool enough to think thats what ill find.

you never know.

he looks at me in the pool
fraser says: (01:13:53)
a certain look

fraser says: (01:14:10)
yearning/missing/fancy you i think?

fraser says: (01:14:11)
look

fraser says: (01:14:20)
i cannot deal with that

Fannyshack says: (01:14:21)
but how do you know when it is that

Fannyshack says: (01:14:39)
how can you separate that wanting and fancying with people who are so hurt' they need to see hope in you.