simple.

I wonder what is would be like to see the world through your eyes.

Do you wake up, dress and look out the window and look past the crystal sky and slow autumn outside your window. Past some leaves and a crisp day where you could find something to be happy about.

Or do you stand and stare at the cobweb in the window frame and look inside yourself and see a darkness that spills like oil inside your soul.

We all have hurt, and pain… we wake up with it its our legacy of a life half lived.
To have that lesson. It’s a gift and a nod to remind you to love and appreciate the things you have.
Its reason to get out of bed in the morning.

What inertia exists in you?

That causes you to arise like a crypt and spend a morn stewing in resentment over someone not living up to your expectations. You don’t live up to your own expectations,

... who whispers in your ears on those cold mornings and says ‘ its not fair, you deserve more… you deserve fun… its his boring way and him… HE took your happiness away’

Surely you realise you are talking to yourself. About yourself.

It is not I or he or they.
Its just you.

Your pain is yours alone.
Your creation
Of your own frustration
Bred from your fascination
Of your isolation

It’s not my obligation.

So I shake it off, scrape your tar off my feet.
I have my PhD in making sense of you.
Look up and realise its your not intention to mistreat.
Quoth the raven
“My heart feels like a lump of dark meat… “

a dream just hatched.

for the nyc people.lancejustinandjay

Behind Scenes Shooting.

Dublin a while ago.


Tiago dressing up.



Titti dressing down.



Neil full stop.

sometimes

its really fucking nice to see an icon looking human.
i saw this picture of Madonna by Steven Klein... its an outtake from W magazines 'Blame it on Rio' series.

at first it was interesting simply because madonna looks exactly her age. Something she manages to avoid quite often.

But now its become my favorite image of her in recent years.

Its like an amazingly composed satire.

Aged icon looks disgusted and afraid of youth and small penis.

personally i would pay thousands for this untreated image to be in my home. it makes me laugh..

long lost

a year ago in Belfast

Hilden Mill Project

Hilden Mill Photographic Project 2009
all images property of Chris Sutton

Leila - Hackney - London last year.

One drunk Night in when i was living with Chez and Leila this time last year.

This Morning.

Nothing like needles and drilling for a filling at the dentist to wake you up. I had that awkard thing of... Not knowing where the hell to look, I established looking at lady dentist while she worked was weird, and eyes closed is a tad creepy.... So I picked a light fitting and made friends with it. As my face numbed from injection I couldn't help chuckle and think of heather mills stroke face. It's the small things that make a day.

i have the best muff.

mystic

I was knocking myself out to make this stuff. And I always assumed that people would see this and have pity and give me a little support.

Jack Smith

romance

we have never met before..

well.. i did meet your shoulder, but the face was busy.

the years..

always run along.. but i just had this moment. I remember being 17 and so heartbroken and crushed that i thought my heart was dead and my eyes where bleeding.

i felt so sad.

and i couldnt understand.


im angry at myself for being the man who hurt me.


i know i ask perfection of a quite imperfect world. And fool enough to think thats what ill find.

you never know.

he looks at me in the pool
fraser says: (01:13:53)
a certain look

fraser says: (01:14:10)
yearning/missing/fancy you i think?

fraser says: (01:14:11)
look

fraser says: (01:14:20)
i cannot deal with that

Fannyshack says: (01:14:21)
but how do you know when it is that

Fannyshack says: (01:14:39)
how can you separate that wanting and fancying with people who are so hurt' they need to see hope in you.

OHHAI

Nu music watch

2010.

so.. pretty much as you know i never pay much attention to radio music, BUT... a few days ago i heard a track by Kid Champion on FYI radio and ive been kind of sucked in.. cut to me stalking their myspace page, listening to all the demos and then ituning it..




their myspace page = http://www.myspace.com/kidchampionmusic

have a listen, chris says yes.

:)

NYE fun.. bleugh